Frankly,
I couldn't express myself and what I feel any better than you have. I do feel like I want to be there for her because I wasn't there when she was 13 yrs. old because I didn't know then what I know now. I still think she hates me because I didn't protect her then.
One time Marle told me that they are two separate issues. In spite of what she had been through I still have to treat her addiction as anyone would who had an addicted child. There is the addiction and then there is the sexual abuse. Because of this combination it make it twice as difficult.
I do feel like I am cutting off my arms. I want to let her go, I just don't want her to hurt anymore. I don't want to be the one to hurt her. It is so sad. I can hardly type anymore. It's all starting to surface. The real pain of why our lives have been so destroyed. How much more pain can I take. I just want it to stop. Please God, make it stop. Please let her know that I would have protected her if I would have known.
Gotta go for now Frankly............I love you