Your natural energy will likely come back if you stop drinking. I don't think there is any drink that is going to give you the energy that you are seeking. I think it needs to come from living a sober life and taking care of yourself.
It also sounds like you are somewhat depressed and that could be as a result of drinking. Alcohol is a depressant and you might find your energy and mood improve when you are sober.
I would say that your future is not destroyed. Your future is what you will build upon, with each sober day. And, yes it's very hard to stop drinking and stay sober, and it takes working at every day. But, you can do it.