I never had the Spouse.
I was the Spouse.
I hated AA, didn't believe in God anymore since I was convinced He was letting all of these horrible things happen to me. And did not want to hear that if I put my life in His hands things would be alot better.
So I relapsed. Then Detox again.
Then relapsed. Detox again.
For me, there was nothing anyone could say, do, threaten me with, ect. that made any difference until I had hit my bottom and I was ready.
You're right, the guilt that I'm sure she feels the next day is worse than before.
I have found Recovery with AA/NA, my Higher Power whom I call God and the help of those in the Program, including my Sponsor.
I had to get honest. Very honest.
I had to humble myself and realize that my way wasn't working.
I can only Pray for your wife and you and the rest of the Family as well.
God Bless & Thank God . . . Just for Today,
Judy