hi Sam
you`re in a rought situation-another option
I noticed you said "I get physical and verbal abuse from a husband"
I believe that means he is beating you.If he is,
go see the Law and take papers out on him and have his butt thrown out of the house,and get a restraining order and you stick with it untill he gets sober.No man or woman has to take physical abuse.Stick with it.If you want things to get better,you have to take some action to stop the physical abuse before he kills you.You can`t fix him,but you can start your own recovery today!
if it was me,I would get going even if I had to start over with nothing,at least I would be alive and no one would be beating me