Thanks Dee, Stoney and Julie.
Today is a better day.I guess it's going to be up and down for a while. The past 5 days have really been hell-huge amounts of stress that I've never gone through before without drinking.That in itself is something I guess I can be proud of.I did have thoughts about it-but I am so determined to not give in-and they pass.
It's interesting-if I focus on myself and what I need-what others are doing around me matters less and less.It's like I'm taking my hands off their lives-stuff I can't control anyway-and trying to attend to my own life, thoughts and feelings.It really does make a difference.I'm not 'happy' by any means, but I do feel like this is a lesson I'm beginning to learn.
Again-thank you all for listening and offering me some insight.I am truly grateful
Julesxox