On Friday I found someome who could get me methadone and I did it without thinking. I really hate this lifestyle and I am going to commit to a new intensive program. A few AA members think I should go inpatient, which I am not opposed to, I just need someone to care for my 180lb puppy. I like being sober but I don't exacty know how to do it. I am willing to do inpatient if someone cares for my pup, if not IOP will be next step.
I am really struggling and don't know what to do. I like being sober more than being messed up but I can't seem to get it together.
My dog is easy-going and just needs some food and a 30 minute walk everday. I am praying someone will step up and give me a hand.
Anyone have experience who can giude me through this?