Originally Posted by
tracee1010 
Changed my phone number and went 4 months...
one lonley night.. I called him...
Straight back to the beginning... again.
Thank you for reminding me, this has been definitely my pattern.
Hearing his voice and seeing how he is doing often sound so harmless and tempting.
I guess also my "care taker" role urges me wanting to know he is okay and alive.
But I know if I pick up the phone and hear his voice, I will eventually go right back where I started.