I was so angry for so long----that song was my mantra for awhile. Damn, if they never showed up! Geez, give a girl a break already. Anyway, I couldn't get rid of it until I forgave. Uh, that would be forgave ME. I was so mad at the "situation", at "him", at "his friends" then I realized I was really mad at me...how did I get me here? I know better, I ignored (with full blinders) the red flags...I married my stepdad (minus the physically abusive trait, praise to God) I swore that wouldn't happen. OOPS. It did. I let it. And then I accepted that I couldn't get a zip code for my home I was trying to build in If-Only Town and started trying to live where I am. You are only human and we make mistakes and it is ok because we can learn from them. Grief will also produce anger. You let the dream live and it didn't make it so some hopes got crushed. Get to a few meetings and you will find yourself in a good place. ****{Hugs}}}