Barbiedeb
Sorry that it's such a difficult time for you. You really are powerless over where or how he is right now, but it doesn't mean you are helpless.
The best thing you can do is have your cry, and then do something, anything to take your mind off it for now. Obsessing doesn't help - I know because I am the Queen Obsessor.
Call a friend, or someone from your meeting and go for a walk, or sit under the trees, or make fudge
, but something that will change your focus just a little. Read a book or magazine, watch "The View" on TV, and let God handle the rest.
We are our own worst enemies for letting the stress wipe us out. You are a terrific lady and a lot stronger than you think right now. Fight back.
And keep venting here if it helps, just don't keep it inside or you will implode.
Hugs