My last binge was not pre-planned. it was bad (drunk for 36 hours, horrible behaviour, consequences) but not my worst. I finally accepted that I just could not control alcohol. I don't think I would have quit if I could have gotten drunk 'successfully' (eg. a one night blackout). My logic was so twisted then. I agree with Best...I'm so grateful to be alive.
Just my perspective - If I am planning a last bender and expecting something good to come of it, then I am not done drinking.