It is always difficult and painful to watch someone go back out and destroy themselves. Unfortunately, the disease of alcoholism is truly a "cunning and baffeling" disease.
That is one thing that keeps me from resting on my laurels and allowing myself to believe that I am safe because I have a few years. I know that my disease still sits there dormant waiting for that first drink so it can come back full force and overpower me once again.
My heart goes out to all those that are struggling whether they are currently drinking or not. I pray that I can continue to stick to the program and stay sober.