Rob, don't give up! Maybe this really is the last time for you. What I mean is--this can be the last time that you go out there again. If you truly feel hopeless--well, why not give the program another chance? What have you got to lose? I know you are frustrated with yourself right now--but don't allow this last relapse to prevent you from having the future you can have with recovery. Wishing you the very best on your road to recovery. :atv Keep movin' ahead!