Congrats PN on your one month of sobriety. I just read through all your thread, I hadn't been on here in weeks. For me, getting over the first days of sobriety was hard because of the physical crave (need) my body had for alcohol; I had medical help and medication to get me through the early days(I'll have 22 months on Mar.4th). For me, staying sober still takes effort by going to AA meetings regularly and seeing an addictions social worker.
Today, I have no desire to drink. Learning to recognize the things (triggers) that leads me to want a drink (setting up a mental crave) , has been very important in me staying sober. Anger, resentment, keeping feelings or thoughts to myself, hanging out with others who are drinking, thinking about the "good old days", etc. Dealing with issues and problems when they arise helps me maintain contented sobriety and a drink very, very, rarely comes to mind.
After the first few weeks and months, I thought I was doing great, but real noticeable changes didn't happen until about 12 to 16 months....mental and emotional changes......the shyness, insecurity, anxiety are nearly non-existent.....for the first time in my life.
Give sobriety a chance to work.......many months or years (one day at a time)......life can be unbelievably better!