Originally Posted by
GreenTea 
Be *honest* when you talk to the doctor...
But then, if you were, you *would* say that... right?
I was terrified to take the first steps. It took me years and lots of consequences before I would admit my denial, or even consider that yeah, maybe I *was* in denial... By the time I finally did, I didn't even care about it anymore. At that point, it wasn't so much fear of "am I an alcoholic?" -- it was fear of giving up my beer and what life would be like without it.
Insanity, protecting that "right to drink".
It won't be very discreet if you collapse, now will it?
Its good that you've got an appointment set up!
I see what you mean, but I don't really care about "protecting that 'right to drink'" as much as I'm scared to deal with those days when I don't drink. The times I have been sober, I didn't feel like a normal person... basically pretty miserable.
Believe me, I wake up and go to sleep every day hating myself.. as well as every time I pour a drink.
If I ever get this worked out, I won't give a crap if I'm at a party and have to say "no, thank you". I just want to live a normal, happy life.