I didn't choose to be an alcoholic. I can't choose not to be an alcoholic.
I believe that it is not my higher power's will for me to die from alcoholism and that recovery is possible if I am willing to do my part. If I do my part, I will realize that God is doing for me what I could not do by myself. I choose to do my part, God is not making me do my part.
So how come I couldn't do all of the spiritual work and ask God to allow me to be able to drink like a non-alcoholic? I might as well ask God to make me tall enough and skilled enough to play in the NBA. It's just not going to happen. God made me 5'6", rather uncoordinated, and an alcoholic. I can accept that or I can deny it, I can't choose to change it.