This has nothing at all to do with your own personal progress. It is a situation that you are seeing very clearly for what it is. No progress would mean doing for him what he needs to do for himself right now. You are in shock. It isn't the first time one of us believed the lies. But you are shocked awake...again. None of us gets it the first time or we wouldn't be here. Don't be so hard on yourself...they are really good at what they do.
HUGS!!