You are not crazy. Your boyfriend is a drug addict--plain and simple. There is absolutely nothing you can do to change him. If he is to change--he must decide he wants to stop using for himself. You already mentioned that he has stated that he doesn't want to stop doing drugs. You have to make a decision--you have to take care of you. You mention that you both were using drugs together from the start of the relationship--he hasn't changed, only you have. You are trying to better yourself and focus on recovery--which is a good thing. I know it is a tough situation, but you don't seem to be happy with how the relationship is right now. It will not change for the better as long as he is actively using. Also, you are putting yourself at risk to get sucked back into that lifestyle--and start back to using yourself. Take care of you--sweetheart, first and foremost. If he had to pick between you and his drug of choice--which one do you think he would pick? (I'll let you think it over). :codiepolice