For anyone interested...
I made it 8 days sober. Fell apart one night. Got sick as a dog over a very small amount of alcohol. I don't throw up, but I did this night. I also had the worst hangover that I have ever had! I felt way worse than when I was detoxing!!
God was talking to me.
I am involved with the AA online, and that is helping a great deal. F2F around here is only 2 meetings a week. Kinda tough to do 90/90 for me huh?
So, doing it everyday online, sometimes 2 meetings a day.
AA online is a great site, the BB online, and a chat module to attend meetings. Thought I would share, for anyone afraid of AA, come check it out.
It is a great place to start!
Alcoholics Anonymous
Also, if I did something wrong about linking it and AA rules, sorry!
Again, thank you ALL who have helped me here. You offered tools for me to get sober, and it really IS getting better everyday! My kids love their mommy again! lol