But one thing I'm trying to understand and figure out....the last time he left, he is the one that triggered that whole thing, (as opposed to me being mean or a nag or whatever)....now that was a whole lot easier for me to deal with, I mean I was hurt, but I was stronger I guess because he messed up? I don't know, is it bad that I liked it better when he screwed up instead of me? I don't know, I probably sound so ridiculous right now.....