I know what you're describing.
Restless.
It's also not being IN yourself.
IN.
Your
SELF.
We're looking for stimulus.
Something anything to keep us interested.
I know what that is.
Or better put: I know what that isn't.
It isn't grounded.
There's a Spirit communication thing not going on.
This is where the Spiritual connection is so important in the life of an alcoholic. The prayer thing. The meditation thing. The quiet thing. The inner silence thing.
Because .. sitting here at work sometimes, I get it.
I can't sit back and meditate because I have to be 'on hand' for guests should something happen.
And, more practically minded - I could fall alseep.
A definite no- no.
Bummer the hotel burned down, but man I was ZOOMIN on the beta zones, man!
uh, yeah.
Stayin, I like ya.
I think you ought to check into some kind of Spiritual discipline.
LIke ... yoga.
Or ... something like that there.
Even if it's just to do like I did and go buy a three dollar clearance yoga dvd.
OR a book on cassette how to meditate or something.
Deepoak Chopra is the BOMB at that.
I heartily recomment him for that.
I've never read a word he's written. I just know fromwatching him on Oprah.
Man knows his poop.