SD nor could I. I spent most of my time feeling sorry for myself and using that as an excuse to use more and withdraw more, a vicious cycle.
I broke it when I met other addicts in recovery it took months for me to hear what they where saying, but they loved and carried me until then.
The thing I did right in those very ealry days of recovery was to hang around addicts in recovery with some time clean, I hung around them in cafes, in meetings, phoned them, walked with them, talked to them and of course spent much time here.
It works.
Kevin