It took me a long time, but I did finally realize that he handed me the garbage because I was willing to accept it. That was the first step to me deciding it was truly a dead marriage and that I had to leave to get myself into a better life. It doesn't matter that his family, friends, whoever don't believe how bad it was. It doeswn't matter that some say I kicked him when he was down. I know my truth and that's all that matters.