Thanks Kickit. That is right on: Feeling suddenly like it's okay to drink... Well, I can truly say that I've been drinking for five days now and I feel HORRIBLE. I mean, I don't mean ashamed or guilty, just physically horrible. I wish today was my 45th day instead of my 1st.
I forgot how the ol' synapses start firing a million miles an hour once I get into drinking again. I can't slow my brain down, and I feel like I'm under constant threat. Like someone is out to kill me.
Woo. It feels better just to write that. It's going to be a rough 5 days ahead of me. One day at a time.
Hang in there everyone! I'm really thankful for our wonderful board.