Hi User name,
I know exactly how you feel. i had 100 days last year and relapsed. I was scared to death to tell my AA friends i drank again. I felt like i let them down and myself. I finally got the courage to tell them and got my white chip again. It wasn't as bad as i thought it would be. Everyone was very supportive and nice and was really happy that I came back. My sponsor was just as supportive. She told me that it could be any one of us. That's why we take it one day at a time she told me.
What i also did was go to the group i felt most comfortable in. That's my home group. Tonight I get my 30 day chip at my home group. You can do it too. Just don't beat your self up, and try again. The AA rooms are always there for us and they never turn us away.
Barb