The pain and sadness still linger here. The anger still lingers here but not as much. I still am angry and hurt over what happened. It seemed as he loved his drugs more than me. And that really hurt. The fear and what ifs still linger here to. Because I am afraid what will happen when he gets out. Hopefully he will do good. I have my doubts but im starting to think that he will do good. But then I dont want to think that because if he does mess up then I will be even more disappointed and upset. So its hard.