Letters
I have been keeping a journal for about seven months now and just recently started to write to my decest mom and dad. I also plan to write to my ******** brother. There is a lot I would love to say to him but he doesn't understand and so I thought if I just put it in the journal it might make me feel better. Anyway, wrighting to mom and dad is helping. It helps me get to the crooks of the situation. Helps me understand who I am and why.
There is a lot I want to get off my chest, things that need to be said and feelings that need to be felt. But now that I am here to say them..... It's like a switch has been flipped and I am in that limbo state. No real feelings and a blank slate when I know there are words there. It's like what I needed to say so badly is no longer of any importants. There is just nothingness.
Does that happen to any of you?
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