I've been right where you are .... the tail wagging the dog. I finally got tired of it. How did that happen? Lots of things....meetings, this board, talking with wise, recovering friends and the pure fact that I was sick in tired of my life being so crappy, feeling so awful all the time.
I hope you'll see that you DO have some control here and it's yours for the taking back when you get ready. We all get there when we're ready.
Big hugs cause I do know this insanity,
Hangin' In