Wow just typing this is hard....a part of me wishes this was not the end for us but I know that I CANNOT go back to living with an alcoholic. It is a terrible life and I only get one time on this earth and I want to make the best of it.
I totally understand where you are at. I'm in the same place. I also pray that I will feel better soon and not miss him and want to reach out to him. Life really is way too short, but the questions are still there.
You seem really strong and sure of yourself and your decision. It's also great that you have the support of you family. Without mine I'm not sure how this would have all gone. They also love my xabf, but they want me to be happy.
In reading your post and others like it, I'm reminded of Samantha and Richard on Sex and the City. He thinks he's cheating again and breaks it off telling him "I love you, but I love me more." I still have a hard time saying that, but stepping out of my relationship has gotten me just a little closer.