I hope you are done and know in your heart of hearts that for you there may not be a next time.
I remember when I walked into a noon AA meeting the day after my last drink. When the chairperson asked for newcomers, I said I was back. There was a man there I had never liked and hated to listen to even more. He looked at me across a table in a room full of people and said "I've been watching you and if you don't get your head out your ass you are going to die." I HEARD him. The first person I ever really listened to in AA.
Tib, if you'll allow me license, I'll echo that to you. I've been watching you post opinions about subjects of which you have no experience of for some time now. I did that for years, so I can say that. I sincerely hope you are done and can hear a message of depth, weight, and hope.
Jim