((((Chiy)))))
I was scared, too, when I started to get back on my feet. Now that I've got close to a year, I'm having strong "using dreams"...haven't had those in ages. I think it's great that you're worried about March. The worry sux, but at least you're thinking ahead! I am trying to get my own apt., move out from the family home, and I've had to deal with the same thoughts you are having.
What works for me is to spend a lot of time with people who are supportive of me being clean....not only in person, but I spend a lot of time here on SR and have several friends from here that I can call or e-mail, in addition to posting here. I also have to remind myself of how BAD my relapse was....I went straight to the bottom quick, and I absolutely hated myself.
You're doing great, and I'm glad you're getting the internet back....you can come here more often
Hugs and prayers!
Amy