The thing I need to remember is that everyones recovery is different. Some get it the first time, some do not. I find it interesting that each time I relapsed since 2002 I rarely stayed out more than a few days. Unfortunately, the few days of using have had serious consequences. I often hated people who "got sobriety" the first time around.
I hated because I was probably jealous. The sad part is that "jails and institutions" had become a way of life. I got use to living a life of misery. The good thing though is that I finally admit my ways are just not working.
Tiburon
"In And Out Of Recovery Since 2002"