Hi yall - I wanted to share this with anyone who is wondering (as I had been) how anxiety will lessen with sobriety. I started drinking (partly) to self medicate anxiety, and when I quit, I couldn't for the life of me grasp how quitting might help the anxiety.
Well, last night, I woke up in the middle of the night, and I started thinking up things to worry about. (old habits die hard
) The part that was different was, everything I thought up was
managable. When I realized it, I was amazed. I also knew how I was going to cope with things that would have thrown me for a loop before. The really startling thing was... NO CRAZINESS. No worrying about what I said when I was drinking earlier in the night, no wondering how sick I am becoming because of drinking, no worrying about how am I ever gonna quit? No questions that didn't have answers, or at least a source to get an answer from. Everything seemed clearly defined. It was AWESOME!
I don't fool myself that I will never get back into worrying from time to time, or that I "have all the answers" - just the opposite, I don't need them, because I only have to figure out today. (And if I can't do that, I know who to ask for help!
)
I know this is a bit rambling...but I did want to share it, because I wondered about this for a while now, and I feel like it was nothing short of a miracle that I finally understood something that has bothered me for so many years.
Thanks for listening guys.