Originally Posted by
DESIGNER 
trying to make sure that I did not create this great love in my head.
Hey there, Designer, I understand - it hurts like hell. This point bothered me for a long time, too. Where I've arrived is understanding I did have a great love for AH; I don't worry any longer whether he did for me. Going through this has taught me I am capable of great love and am learning to share that with the right people.
I've also learned a lot more about what a healthy love is.
One more truth for me: over time the money I stressed on came to be worth it. It didn't at the time, I worried about it constantly.
((()))