Hello, New here, have read a few threads the other day, but didn't post.. But thought i would today..
My name is Steve and Im another Aussie..
And have decided yet again, to really try and stop the booze. Tried so many times, I gave up trying for a while, but having just started a new job, and already missed 1 day because of a hangover (I only work volunteer a few days a week, so it's noticed..) I thought stuff it, this time for sure.
I've tried campral, which is just like tic tacs.. I've had councelling.. But always got a few beers on the way home.. I just couldnt make the motivation I'd feel while at Holyoakes (Similar to AA, but not religious) last much more than 5 minutes after I'd left...
Always felt such a failure, but always had an excuse to lie to myself about..
Well, after over 20 years of doing this, enough...
And so as I leave for work today, Im praying I have the strength to make it home without having passed by a bottleshop and bought something.. It's friday, and that was always my excuse before. But even just posting this makes me feel a little bit stronger..
I have a flakey internet connection (Lies, I havent paid the invoice for this month because I went on a bender.. haha
, so I'm looking at being disconnected for a few days, but Im hoping that when I get home tonight, I can log back on and go thru some more threads here.. There really is a lot of hope seeing so many make it so many days sober..
My longest is .. maybe a month, about 7 years ago.. since then, no longer than 9 days. More often, I'd drink either every day or every second day.. Having lost my good job in 2004 due to being on zoloft and chronically drinking myself into a stupor every night. Losing my job, all my friends, my entire social life.. Gaining weight, losing hope, giving up..
Enough is enough eh..
Whew, sorry for the rant.. I better go, or I'll be late.. haha
Cheers.. No I mean, Hooroo.. (doesnt have the connection..)
Steve.