dear blondie,
over and over here you will hear people say trust your gut. you are right to take seriously what you are feeling. i hope he agrees to the test--and i believe you have every right to request it. families have every right to wage war on addiction if there is a hint it is showing its face again. and i hope the test is clean and it is just a period of post-acute withdrawal, which can come intermittently, over years. i hope you and your family will be all right. sending all best wishes that all is well and will be well.