I don't have a higher power as such....
...but I know I'm a crabby, nasty, anxious, fearful, boastful, self-centered, greedy, needy, nasty (did I mention nasty?), neurotic son of a b**** sometimes. And I wish I wasn't like that and the more I'm like that, the more likely I am to drink. (I don't feel like that's very likely right now, but who knows what traps await.)
To not be crabby, nasty, etc. etc., what do I do? There's all sorts of stuff. I work out, I try to slow down and relax. I have a book of letters written by people about to be executed in the war, which sometimes I read slowly and think about slowly. But all of these things are just stuff I do - I can't make them work. All I can do is open myself up to some big old Outside. LIke you can't physically push a smell out of a room, you just open the window.
...is that a higher power? Maybe just an Outside.
Don't know if that makes any sense. It's kind of late and am off to bed. Night night.