Wow. That's a really heavy situation, wildkatz - I know you've been here for a while, so you know already that you have a huge amount of support here.
I think it's amazing that you said no to your ex and to the drugs, and I want to congratulate you for that. I honestly don't know how many of us would be able to do the same thing, but you did. You are awesome.
I think you're an inspiration, and I hope that you continue to seek support to get through this time and the times ahead, and continue to sort out the personal issues that are connected to your recovery.
All the best,
ndz