((((katz)))))
I am so sorry for what you are going through right now. I know there is nothing I can do to change it for you. I also know that using will not improve your situation but it sounds like you know that too. I am proud of you for not giving it, that took strength and courage. You are stronger than you realize. I believe that you work a 12 step program but I could be wrong. If you do remember that your true strength comes from your HP. I am so glad that you posted today with your heart. Sometimes that is the best thing we can do for ourselves. Take care and if there is anything you can think of that I can help you with pm me and let me know. Take care.