Actually Asking Why as the Alcoholism progresses we don't even care about ourselves other than to keep the alcohol in our bodies.
Many years ago while still practicing my affliction and married to my first husband, who in reality was also an alkie, just as not as far along as I was, I called him from Dallas, TX to let him know where I was, seems I had been gone for 8 days, and you couldn't have proved that by me.
Asked him how was I suppose to get home, his answer..................................."the same way you got there, use the f****** charge card" and this out of the mouth of a mucky mucky Air Force Intelligence Officer.
Many years later, after our divorce and I was sober and he still wasn't we could laugh about it but it was a 'sick' laugh. Living with a practicing alkie whether an individulal is also an alkie or not is absolute H*ll!!!!!
Please for your own Sanity, check out Alanon!
J M H O
Love and hugs,