Welcome herdaughter.
My mother is not an alcoholic, but I have lost her anyway to a religion that tells her she cannot talk to me. I don't have a mother either. And that really hurts. Especially after all the hurtful things they put you through, and you kept trying to be the good daughter!
You are doing well to trust your higher power and leave your mom in His care. Now, take time to take care of you. I am glad you found us here. This site has been one of the best supports I have.
Read the stickies and post here with us. You will see that we have all had suffering, but are all trying to heal from our hurts. Welcome again.