I'm still drinking daily. The bi-polar is under control, it's just this fu#$%^& anxiety. I have a court hearing tomorrow and i'm petrified, even tho i know nothing will happen. My lawyer will get an adjournment to gather psych reports etc, but it still makes me anxious.
It often gets so bad that i can't do anything. And if i do have an appointment etc...I have to work it out to the finest detail to ensure i make it, even tho i know i have plenty of time.
Alcohol and my meds don't mix but I do enjoy the buzz. When will I be able to live a normal life and b able to cope with day to day events like a normal person?
I'm beginning to think i'll b like this forever so may as well just get smashed everyday.
I know that sounds silly, but i really need help.
I've been taking my drs and my psychologists advice but it seems nothing is working. I only feel good when I'm wasted and i'm tired of it.