One of the things that I came to realize mostly about the situation I am in...I allowed myself to be stepped on and am now...or was punishing myself.
I miss my step daughter incredibly, my life...the structure that was.
I had a call from the ex and she balked at me for quitting drinking...but I said I was doing it for me...not her...not anymore.
I realize why we arent together...strangely comforting.