Day 10 check in
Hey All- At 9PM tonight I'll have 10 days...if that happens it'll be the first double digit amount of sobriety I've had in years...literally. I'm trying to respond to others as well as post myself...I know its not all about me...yesterday was hard..I found out my last debacle caused even more damage than I thought....I felt the guilt and remorse fresh all over again...of course followed by the urge to drink...I felt small and stupid...unloved and unloveable...but drinking won't help that..I know that today. I did what I did and there will be consequences...I have to focus on today or I'm done. I have my kids this weekend...trying to focus on that and be grateful and available to them...it is a blessing to be able to see them..it wasnt always that way. I have ALOT to be thankful for...trying to change my thinking regarding what might have happened to what didn't happen and be grateful it wasn't worse..Know what I mean? Insight is painful...and I'm having a lot of them. Thanks again all for all your support and help