Originally Posted by
simplesyrup 
Hey Brittany,
Something I noticed through my own lengthy recovery is that often times the substance isn't really the issue. I haven't touched my drug of choice in 12 years, but unfortunately the majority of the time I spent "drug free" I was still abusing myself and those around me with my addictive behavior.
Perhaps without the alcohol you will be able to see your life more clearly and figure out why you are so sad. Other people may be afraid of the path you are considering choosing; it certainly isn't an easy one, but it is very rewarding. You should be proud of yourself for taking these steps. Keep up the good work!
Best of luck!
First of all let me say thank you very much for the encouragment.
I'm not sad in general, I'm very rarely like this.
I'm not depressed or hurt, I just feel low.
I have more happy days than sad days.
I'm just low cause I have come to the point where I am relying on alcohol to give me those feelings of happiness.
It's pretty much ruling my life.