I am ready - for good. Really I am. I already just printed out garden apt. listings for the county over from mine (cheaper), I hope I can make appointments to look at them over the weekend, I am going to call our car dealership (I drive a car leased in AH's name) and see what I can do to get one in my name (and cheaper, don't want the big payments) and let AH turn this one in. Problem is, I already know, deep down and in my gut, not to tell him that I plan on moving out, not to even tell him when I sign the lease or on the moving day. It would only create more chaos and havoc, so it would be best to just leave. But I wouldn't know how to handle the loose ends, but I guess it will come to me.