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Couple months ago I posted about a women I was dating for two years, who became sober and started attending AA, a year and seven months into the relatioship. She started to become distant and we stop having sex, due to things that happened in the past when she was 16 with her first boyfriend (sexual abuse).

Oct. 1st she took me by suprise and said we needed to take a break. I could not believe it, here was a women who was crazy about me when we first met, and she even took it to the next level saying that she wanted to get married and have my kids some day. She even said this two days before our break.

Anyways I started going to Al-Anon meetings, I realized that I was a Codie. I lost who I was and thats not the person she fell in love with. So I continued to work on myself, and so did she. She could see the change in me and was liking what she was seeing. After Thanksgiving weekend she started calling me as if we were dating again. She told me that she does not want to look for another guy cause she has me. I was told by her she was having dreams about me, and sexual feelings for me, but she wanted to take things slow and date me after she was done with college.

I was excited, but then she relapsed and backed off. She tells me now that she is dealing with alot of things, trying to find a job and getting on her own feet, not to mention she is dealing with her recovery and other issues. I am trying to understanding why she backed off agian, and she told me it had nothing to do with me and that she does not want another guy.

Its hard not to think that this has nothing to do with me. I AM CONFUSED!

Al-Anon is all I got I guess.