I'd recommend finding an a/d pill that doesn't kill your libido, creativity, etc and go with it. Then try to find a Dual Recovery group to go to even if it's small and only once a week. Dual Recovery people don't stare at you as if you have sprouted antlers if you bring up deppresssion or God forbid voices/unwanted music. The mental illness and the alcoholism will feed each other if you're not careful.
IceWolf