I have a similar problem to yours its called terminal uniqueness. My problem with alcohol is that I’m an alcoholic. I have an allergy that when ever I put alcohol into my system it triggers a allergy that craves more of the same. I just can’t have a little alcohol, alcohol in any amount sets this terrible cycle in motion. Step over to the nearest bar room and say your going to just have one. Try it more than once!!!!
I used to think alcoholics were dirty people who lived in alleys and dumpster’s people who walked around with bottles and paper bags not any more. I am truly sorry this is happening to you and I wish you luck in the search for a solution. My search took me to AA and today I no longer have to binge drink or drink period, don’t want or need to.