To me, after 25 years together the hurt and pain of watching someone I loved so much destroy his life and mine, I fell out of love with him. He became someone I thought he would never become. Looking back I see nothing but selfishness on his part. He always bought the best of everything for himself while the kids and I shopped at second hand stores and took other peoples furniture clothing whatever they gave us. I wanted a family he wanted to drink,it's as simple as that. I have been unable to locate him for 6 weeks now as I need to get him to sign the papers to sell our home. No one has heard from him,he could be dead somewhere for all I know. I beleive when you lose the love and respect for them it is very hard to get back.