It's only eight weeks.
No matter HOW much you drank or used, or how long - your body is still trying to heal.
I find myself thinking in the first few weeks I felt the progress was much up front, but now I feel there is no movement forward. I am afraid I will lose focus on this struggle if I don't figure out want is going on.
Yeah. That's the problem with thinking. It scares the crap outa us most of the time - scares us so bad - we have to shut it up somehow. Usually -= by going back to the sedative of choice - drink or drugs.
Do I just force myself to find new things to do since all my life all I did is drink and use drugs?
Don't FORCE ... anything.
Addiction is all about forcing.
You don't do that any more.
Gonna take a little time to get used to it -
but it's a much better way to be.
Should I just start talcking problems and forget about where I am. I am trying to listen at meetings and see what works for others, but it I find myself walking away just as confused as when I walked in.
We have a saying ...
"Just be where your hands are."
"Should I" ... pretty much means - you're going someplace else in your head.
Not ... HERE.
What is going on here .. is ....
what got said in your meeting tonight?
Got your dishes done?
Got your step work out of the way for today?
Didja take a minute to study clouds, or connect with something greater than yourself today?
Where are you ... right now?
online.
reading this.
where's youre hands?
right here...maybe with one particular finger pointing at me.
heehee. I know it's not what we want to hear.
but you're HERE.
WE ... don't tackle
anything any more.
We allow what is ... to be.
your'e learning this, I can see it in your post.
It looks like old habit trying to take over,
is all,
and new habits are not secure enough to be automatic.
Let yer body heal first.
You've received some great advice here, in the previous posts..
JMO